Just A Lil' Thought.

I found out about the plane crash news of MH17 this afternoon when I just woke up from my nap. It was so sudden, so shocking. 

At first I was doubting the validity of the news because it wasn't from reliable webpages like CNN or BBC, it was from some famous Facebook page thou. I prayed that it was just some rumours being spread, but within minutes, it was verified by CNN that it was being shot down by a missile. That feeling.

And also within few minutes, the whole Facebook news feed was flooded with few statuses such as:

"RIP MH17"

"How can this happen?!" 

"Let us pray for the safety of the passengers and also the crew on board of #MH17"

I don't understand the main purpose of posting such statuses to be honest. I'm sorry if I offended anybody but this is seriously, something questionable. Now before you continue reading this, I would advice that you keep an open mind, because it might get a lil heaty or offensive for some people. 

In my opinion, if you are really, sincerely praying for their safety, you can just do it, without having to tell the whole world to prove that you are praying. Such actions can be done without posting it on Facebook and getting likes as though it's a trend to post "RIP" whenever something happened. I seriously, do not get it also in the tragedy of MH370. If someone were to pray, they would have done it automatically after they get to know about such incident. Ask yourself, do you need such "kind reminders" from the social network to remind you to pray when something has happened? What would you gain when you post such status? Fame? Money? Likes? Or if everyone posted similar things it could ensure the safety of the people? If that is so, let's just stop all the rescue work and start posting status and liking your friend status on social media.

Also, some people who like to share rumours or news which haven't been verified by officials on social media with the caption "I hope it's not true :'(" Oh come on, you hope its not true, then why? Why would you still share such things to make things worse? Have you considered about the feelings of family member's of the passengers on board who might have just read the things you shared? It's already heartbreaking to know that the safety of their family member who are on board are at stake, and with different patterns of bullshit being shared on social media, it would just make them feel worse.

Another thing which I do not understand as well is the purpose of liking such statuses or news. To me, the function of liking a post is to know that you either agree with the person's opinion, or you like what you have read on social medias. An obvious example if someone posted a status like this:

RIP XXX

Within few minutes the status will gain lots of "Like", and I am sure that the person who have posted this status will be constantly checking his/her notifications every 10 seconds to see how many people have liked his/her status. Are you really expressing your condolences to the family of the passengers? Or you just enjoy watching your status being clicked "Liked" by your friends? As for people who have liked such statuses, YOU LIKE WHAT YOU HAVE JUST READ? Are you liking it because you are happy that the person passed away? Or you are jolly because such incident has happened? If it isn't, can someone tell me what is the purpose of liking such status? To prove that you have read the status? Or you are too used to liking every post you saw on Facebook so you liked that as well?

If you are really sorry for these people who are involved in accidents or tragedy, you could have done something more realistic such as reaching them and console them, helping them to pass through this difficult period. Or support them physically and as well mentally so that they know they are not alone in dealing with such matters. Definitely not by posting statuses and watch how many "Likes" you would get in the end of the day. For some who has limited resources, you could offer your prayers and pray for their safety and and also for their family members with a sincere, SINCERE heart.

People, be mindful of what you have posted on social media, and also be mindful what you have clicked "Like" on Facebook. Posting such status won't help the rescue process or the investigating process. If you really want to do something, you do it with all your heart without having to be told by others.


No I am not referring to any person in particular or trying to make people feel bad. I just want to share some of my thoughts on this matter. Blabber session ended.

Being Random.

I typed and I backspaced, retype and backspaced. I felt like blogging, but I'm not really sure of what to write about. I'm a little lost, myself.

Overthinking kills, yep. So I guess that this post will be abit random, this and that, here and there haha.

Having a bad Italian language skill is a major problem here. For example, when you are out for a dinner and everyone around you started to talk, you couldn't mingle around because all you can do is to pick up the words that you understand from their conversation and try to make up the whole convo they are discussing about. And imagine the words that you understand are so limited. The only thing you could do is to flash your teeth and smile brightly. Sometimes I got numbed-face for smiling too long. The same situation goes the same with any other occasion, for example, hanging out with friends who doesn't speak English, feeling scared whenever you had to be alone in the city because poeple don't speak English. 

I am not saying that this is bad or either complaining, but I believe that its the same for other exchange students as well. For those who chose to exchange to a country who doesn't speak their mother tongue or share any languages in common. So lesson of the day is to learn as much language as possible when you are young, it will come in handy soon or later.

Three things I did most when I am here is to eat, sea sunbath and also evening walk. Need not to mention bout eat, how can you not enjoy the taste of pure authentic Italian food when you are in the land of pizza? Here you get to try a lot of pasta cooked in varieties rather than usual pasta cooked in tomato paste in Malaysia. And as for sunbathing, yeah I did it like three of four times in a week. To be honest I am likes tones darker now, but the good thing is that it is in even skin colour. I used to have this two different colour tone on my arm because I didn't use sunblock when I was wearing t-shirt. And it was hideous whenever you have to wear sleeveless shirt. So now with the constant sunbathing, I'm seriously tanned, no more langsat kuning kulit, but its okay I like getting tanned hahaha. Also, everyday 7pm sharp, I would be fast-walking by the sea with my mum and two dogs, sometimes accompanied by family's friends as well. I just came back for today's walk, and I was extra tired today, Idk why.

Last night I was out with my friends in the Centro, they were like my anesthetic and my loves in Messina. We were four in the afternoon, called it Awesome Foursome, but one left and it became Awesome Threesome. Sounds abit wrong but it's funny to see one Chinese girl accompanied by two Italian guys as if they are my personal bodyguard who would protect me from any harm. I really loved my friends here because they took effort to bring me to eat, sightseeing and also to tell me history of the city. Another major reason why I would want to return to the land of pizza is to meet them before they are all occupied with their university, besides visiting my host family again.

It has been raining here in the evening right after the walk. And now the chilly wind is striking, killing me slowly with the chilliness. It's the sea wind. Somehow when it rains it gets really cold as if its winter here in Sicily. No snow, just the rain and the wind. It's good for sleeping thou, so I can snuggle in my blanket and also my niek-niek (fav pillow's name).

Time really flies. It does. In another two week plus I will be back into reality, having to face all the things that are awaiting. So before I hit hard back to reality, I shall make the most of the remaining days that I have here the best days of my life.

Leave no regrets, they say. 

suetneeeee

Blogging.

I used to have a blog under the name called alienetnee.blogspot.com and now its gone forever, just like bad memories. Upon the reopening of my current blog, I've got quite a number of people who used to visit my blog asking me if I had deleted all my previous post because I remained the template but I did a little touch up, this and that, and YES. I deleted all my previous posts.

Some of you might wonder why would I delete all the memories and my growing-up evidence. Some think that I should have remained those posts so that in future when I read back, I would have a nice time reminiscing the good old times I had when I was in high school. Well, to me, yeah at first I hesistated if I would actually wanted to delete all these posts. But after a thought or two, I decided to proceed with the delete decision. The main reason is because all my posts back then are mostly full of hatred or negativity, which isn't a good thing thou. I wouldn't want to read it back myself either, it's too horrible. 

When I was back in secondary school, I misused the internet as a tool to express my anger, sadness and all the negative emotions that I had. Blogging was like a way for me to express myself using words, to show the world how frustrated, sad and angry am I, it was like self-victimizing myself to gain sympathy from others so I would felt that I was actually being cared by my friends. How lifeless coming to think back about it now. Not forgetting Facebook as well, I used to update every single emotions I had, in psychology wise, it's due to the fact that I was feeling empty, lacking of self-confidence, wanting the feeling of being affirmed by my friends by the number of 'Likes' I would get by updating my status.

I did not regret deleting all the posts, in fact I was so much happier that it was a forever-goodbye to those negative post. It will always be a reminder to me to stay optimistic no matter what happened. And also to remind that the internet is not a channel for me to express my negative emotions till it would gain annoyance and influence the emotions of those who read my social media's status or blog.

Cincin (Yam-Seng in Italian) for my new blog with a brand new look.

Now, updating my current state after being in Messina for almost three weeks in Italy. Every single moment I was craving for Hokkien Mee and also Fried Meehoon. My mum said that once I touch down in M'sia I am going to have hokkien mee ohmagodd. But I don't mind other food as well la, as long I got M'sia food I'm happy enough haha.

Piazza Duomo. The main church in the city centre with no filters.

suetneeeee

Boat Trip.

Just came back from a morning walk with my Italian mum, her friend and also with two lovely dogs of ours! I am dead tired now, it was an hour journey back and forth along the beach. But to burn the calories from the whole pizza I ate last night, it was worth it lolol

ps. it was my first time being able to finish one whole pizza on my own for dinner last night. Not sure if its a good thing thou hmmm

Back to topic, so today I wanted to blog about my boat trip experience with my lovely host parents. So far I went on a boat trip twice, it was breathtaking, I mean the sea view and the experience was definitely one to remember for the rest of my life!

The first boat trip I was a bit reluctant because I was told that we were going to sunbath the whole day from 11am till 5pm. The sun was definitely the hottest at that time. For them, they enjoyed being under the sun, and when I told them that we, Malaysians carried umbrellas under the sun, they were like "WTF U GOTTA BE NUTS" Yeah yeah I know, this is the difference in culture that we had haha. Probably if they had sun for whole year long they would have do the same I guess 

I was allowed to bring a friend of mine along with me for the boat trip, so I immediately thought of a friend of mine whom I met in Messina, Bianca, because of her exchange with AFS to Malaysia for one year. She just ended her exchange program so she would have known how exchange students feel or do, and she is one of the ten million Italians who I've met that could actually speak good English! hahaha

Everything was going well. We swam in the sea, had lunch on the boat and also started getting tan under the hot hot HOT sun. When I got back, I realized how red and hot both my shoulders are. Daymmmm. I've must have gotten sunburn. My shoulder hurts, even the pressure of the bra straps killed me.

pps. now my skin have started to peel. It is disgusting, I feel like a snake histtttt

Second boat trip was yesterday from 11am-3.30pm. I told my parents that I didn't want to swim thou because I was scared that I would be half dead when I meet my friends in centro in the evening for dinner. My initial plan was to wear sunglasses, read books and take good pictures of the view. Eventually, I got seasick and I was forced to swim to the shore to feel better. Epic-fail plan lololol

It was my first time getting sea sick. Feeling very uncomfortable and dizzy, I threw up in the boat. I felt very sorry because everyone was so worried about me, but luckily it was just for a while. After puking my breakfast I felt so much better, but it was still a good day thou.

In the evening I had to take the tram to centro to meet up with my friends, first time taking the tram is erm challenging in terms of the uncertainty of how the tram works. Pizza and pub, had cocktails of vodka, coke and lemon. Within seconds I started feeling hot and a lil tipsy haha 

 Last night's pizza, Quattro Giorni, symbolizes four seasons on each side of the pizza

This is the skin peeling session. Horrible.

Boat trip #1

Boat trip #2 No filters needed.

First.

Ciao! Back to blogging I guess hahah

It's currently 11.35 p.m. in Italy. Yeah, back in Italy after one year plus of my exchange life. Somehow being back here reminds me of how beautiful the world is, and how one should go travel whenever he/she has the ability, be it near or far, everyone needs it.

Currently listening to Jason Mraz's Love Is A Four Letter Word album while updating and getting my blog a new and fresh look. Reading my previous posts made me laugh at myself so hard till I wanna give myself a slap haha. How ridiculous some blogpost could be, and how kid-minded I used to be during the secondary school. But well, I used to tell my mum ''When you realized how childish you used to be when you were young, you should be glad because you have grown since then"

I'm actually not much of a wordy person, not so good in expressing myself in words or action. But still I will constantly improve myself to become a better person than I was compared to yesterday. I'm sorry but readers, keep your expectations low okayy. hahaha

I'll try to get some of my latest updates here, just to share some beauty of my place here in Messina!

One of my favourite places to hang out :)

Suetneeeee.