New Year

I was supposed to finished my birthday post and published it last year, which seems a very long time ago, but in fact not (just a few days ago). But clearly due to endless level of procrastination and enjoying my sem break like a baws, I couldn’t deliver it before New Year started…. So yeah Happy New Year from me lololol

Uni’s starting next week and I’ve got my feelings all mixed up. One part of me wants to go back and study because I don’t have to rot in the house doing nothing besides house chores, my guitar, and also books; another part of me fears of what is coming in the new sem with new subjects. With all the deadlines and assignments which require much of my brain juice and critical thinking, the horror horrifies me a lot. I know, I’m making my life so much more complicated than it seems to be. It’s actually very simple, overthinking kills. Guess I’ll need to make my remaining holidays to the best and enjoy to the max before new stress levels hit on. And also enjoy the company of my brother before he starts school as well :’(

New Year hmmm, not much of a new resolution from me. I’ll just be real to myself and also make sure that I constantly improve myself compared to the previous me. And of course having to make sure things that I’ve planned come into real action so that I’m one step closer to my goal.

To be honest I don’t feel any different or any special about new year. My mum said I’m getting very old, older than her. It’s another normal day to me so…. Sometimes I do worry about what is going on with my thinking. I call it the Ah-Ma-Thinking-Syndrome, where the thinking is no longer the same as people same age around you, but to the extent of those old uncles and aunties. You find things that people the same age do around you boring and a waste of time, but of course, not all the time.

I’m not sure what is really going wrong/right bout me. I’m still in the midst of understanding this as well, using all kind of possible analyses, probably one of the acceptable explanation is

I’m really getting old. lol

Anyway still a Happy New Year from me!