My Y1S1 is really
coming to an end, on this coming Thursday. That is when I will be sitting for
my last paper of the semester. And I’m done with the very first semester of my
degree.
You know, I was like “Wtf,
there goes my first semester.” In a blink of an eye, it just ended like that.
And then I realized that I really need to enjoy my remaining semesters, join
more activities so that I don’t end up graduating with nothing to talk about on
my Uni life. Even though I’ve involved myself in certain activities this sem,
somehow I felt like I haven’t full stretched my abilities to the fullest. More
committee work hunting should be done I guess.
I am indeed really
busy for the past few weeks, and upon handling my very last assignment for the
semester on 24/10/14, I felt immediate relieve. Now, just fingers cross that I
will pass the assignment so I don’t have to retake it next semester. Last week
was the most stressful week, with that assignment accompanied by two heavy
reading load subjects’ finals. And now I’m procrastinating from revising for my
last paper that is going to be on this Thurs, but I think this procrastination
is worth it lololol.
Recently I came across
one pic on FB. And it was something like
“Being a psychology major, you find yourself very hard to be angry at someone, because you know the causes behind their behaviors”
Not the exact quote, but
from what I remember it’s something like that. And I felt into deep thought.
Yes, indeed. Psychology is about studying mental processes and human behaviors.
And for every single human behavior, there has to be a cause to why they had
chosen to react in such a way. And what makes psych different from other majors
is that, we know the reason why. And we couldn’t really blame the person from
behaving in such a way because it is what their growing up environment,
parenting they received, and influence from their peers etc. that has molded
them in such a way. We have to accept individual differences, because no one
will have the exact same thinking as you, nor you will find someone who will
behave the same as you.
And I do find myself
using this to rationalize my angry thoughts at time. For example, when a kid
comes to you and says that you’re fat and ugly. As a psych major, the first
thing that crosses my mind is, “poor child, what an environment they are
growing up from.” Instead of focusing to be angry on the child, you think of what
could have cause the child to behave in such a way. And you forgive for what
they have done. And btw, the example given is not a real life event thou, it’s
really an example.
I guess this is the
good and the bad of being a psych major? Hahaha on one side you understand the
reason why to a certain behavior portrayed by another person, which makes the
society generalizes us to be “Psychics a.k.a Mind Reader”, just because they haven’t
thought of one level deeper. Probably it’s because they are not exposed to such
knowledge yet so I don’t really blame society for having such stigma about
Psychology graduates. On the bad side, your angry rights are to be cut down to
perhaps zero level? Because you couldn’t really find a reason to be angry, you
automatically rationalize them with the analyses of their behavior.
However there’s one
thing that I still couldn’t find myself adapting into even though I’m a Psych
major. I tend to be oversensitive on other’s body language when they are
talking to me. Because I know what are the possible body language others will portray
when they are interested in engaging in the conversation with you. Or what is
the possible body language that signals that they are not interested in talking
with you.
At times when I’ve spotted body language of others signaling that
they don’t really wanna talk to me, they just talk to me for the sake of
talking, I take it personally at times. I’ve been self-reflecting on myself
thou because of this, does this happens because I am an A-hole to others? Or
simply they prefer talking to someone who is more interesting? Probably I
should consider closing my eyes when I am in a convo so I don’t have to observe
anything lololol. Or probably the knowledge that I have gotten from all the
books on body-language is misleading and only applies for a small fraction of
people in the society?
Still, you know what.
Screw it lol. I couldn’t get everyone to like me and engage in a convo that
they are not willing to, and that’s a fact. And soon I have come to this
realization that “it’s okay, cause I know who are the ones who really wanna
talk to me because they want to, and those for an insincere convo.” Which makes
me treasure the sincere ones, and focus on building more in-depth friendship with
them. People come and go in your life, factdat ;)
How wonderful would it be if I am able to produce the same amount of words that I’ve typed on this blogpost within 20 minutes for my assignments.
Hmm, enough food for
thought I guess? Gotta start fighting for the final paper again. ciauzzzzz
Suetneeeee.
P/s. Its finally
December! *throw confettis*
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