22/2/2016

At this current moment, I am not feeling very good. I’m feeling like a piece of mud to be honest.

Somehow I feel all this negativity surrounding me, I have no motivation to study. I have no idea how to overcome this down feeling. Everything seems so blue.

Probably it is the time of the month again.

I got stressed up, bit by bit. And this is definitely not a good sign for me to pull through the remaining weeks.

I find no suitable people to tell bout my current feelings. So I choose to write it out.

I technically have no words to say anymore. I’m gonna go drown in my pool of blueness.

2/10/16

Here I am again, for unknown reasons. Somehow I just felt like I need to come here to start warming up for my typing and thinking flow lol, for assignments sake.

Today has been the third day of CNY, and finally I've managed to laze abit here and there. Man I've gotta tell you that is probably the best feelings ever. However at the back of my brain there's this reminder to tell me to better start my assignments now or else I'll cry at the end of the due date.

First and second day has been the pretty much usual cooking and visiting my relatives at Klang. Since I've got no hometown to go back to, nor I have a huge family with 10 uncles or 10 aunties; therefore each year is just pretty much the same. Stuck in the house awaiting for people to bump into our house.

My phone's been playing the same songs over and over again. I think it's only me who finds it hard to dig a nice song that doesn't get on my nerves each time I listen to it. Btw, my definition for a good song would be first the catchy-ness, then the singer, then I'll replay it non stop for 3 days or even more depending on my preference for that song. If I don't get bored of it, then that will be a good song.

Hmm I think it's already two months since the break up with him. I don't deny the fact that there were times where I'll be reminded of him whenever I go to places where I once used to hang out with him at. I think I've moved on pretty well, and I hope he is doing the same thing too. If you ask me whether I will feel sad when he has found a new girlfriend, my answer would be yes and no. Yes of course anyone would feel down for a bit because there's now someone to replace and perhaps do better job as being his partner. And no, is because I know that everything is over and there is no more turning back. Since there's no turning back, I might as well wish him and his partner all the best, they got my blessing hahah

I am no longer trapped with all the flashback memories, and I'm moving on pretty well. Even better than I've expected. I would be more cautious with my choice and my decisions for all these stuffs. I'll just hope and wait for a better HIM in future :)

Alright I'll quickly end my sentence because there's this human whom I've sort of promised to wake up early tomorrow and virtually study together. I shall now go crash.

signing off,
suetneeeee

8/2/2016

If you had realized, I had different dates format as my title each time coz I don't remember how I wrote in the previous post's title lol. Sometimes it appears as 8/2/16, sometimes 08/02/2016, sometimes 8/2/2016. But OCD humans please bear with me hahah, I didn't really bother bout making it all standardized.

So my first month of the year went off just like this, and now its the second week of February. Don't think that I've accomplished much, but there's still a very long way to go.

Since I've got this perception that no one really reads my blog anyway so it's a good medium for me to communicate with those who do, and for myself since I prefer writing over speaking bout certain stuffs; I'm gonna share my own experience with the website I've found through Google today.

Okay so here's a brief intro to how I happened to stumble to this website which is pretty useful yet pretty damaging for some individuals:

I was searching for some online language courses/language centres for me to learn Korean because I'm planning to travel there by the next winter. Then I was typing in the search box for related terms like "online language course Korean" "Korean classes in KL" "Korean classes in Selangor" and etc., then somehow Google brought me to this language exchange website. And I was like "wow. okay. cool. Really cool" I signed up, filled up necessary details and I was searching for individuals who is willing to teach me Korean, and in exchange I will teach them English/Chinese/Malay/Cantonese. That's the whole purpose of the website: to promote language exchange easily among individuals no matter where they are.

However as much as it sounds like a very useful and cool concept. There are also flaws to it (as usual). I've happened to encounter lots of guys who happens to want a casual chat with ladies and when they've found out that you can't speak Korean at all, they gave up communicating with you. Not a very good learning attitude to me, because I don't mind waiting for explanations and to simplify my English to match their level. But somehow.... yeeah you know.

The possibility of me encountering someone who is serious in exchanging language would be around 1/20? Relatively difficult but somehow yeah I've known someone who is really keen in learning, even more keen than me. So I count myself lucky for this. Of course I was also approached by lots of guys more than females? I would say this was because with the help of profile picture on my Language Exchange profile lol, and that humans still fall for physical appearances eventually.

Overall I would say this is a pretty good experience for me. And also for me to learn to socialize virtually. I will be attaching the link for those who are also keen in learning new language but didn't have much time to attend classes like I do. However bear in mind that you must be clear of what is your initial intention for signing up on the website. And you will need to keep reminding yourself your main purpose of doing so. It is a very good way to meet people. But beware of the wolves lurking behind the pc screens.

Those of you who needs it:
www.mylanguageexchange.com

And btw, Happy Chinese New Year! :)

Signing off,
suetneeeee